Archive for November, 2015

“Noah?!” Milla’s voice danced through my apartment as I sat on my couch. “You’re watching this again?” She asked as she stood in front of me.

“Not anymore.” I joked, wrapping my arms around her hips.

“Stop!” She laughed. She playfully hit my arms to free herself but it didn’t work.

“Oooh, feisty. I like that.” I teased wiggling my eyebrows.

“You’re such a damn clown. Did you know that?”

“Maybe. Maybe not.” I pulled her down onto my lap with a grin on my face. She wrapped her arms around my neck as she beamed back at me. “How long has it been now?” She asked looking into my eyes. “You know, since we’ve started over.”

“Let’s see.” I started, wrapping my arms around her waist. “I think it’s been almost a year and a half.”

My mind started to wander just thinking about the time. So much has happened in a year and a half. It’s almost hard to even believe that’s all it’s been. One year and five months that we’ve been together. And every day I still can’t believe she’s here.

Each time she walks into a room I can’t help but stare at her. I find myself constantly in awe at everything she does. The way she pushes her hair out of her face. The way her nose wrinkles when she tries to open a jar I closed too tight. Or just the way she looks when she thinks. She can make any minor movement into the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. And that is what captivates me.

She’s caught me staring a few times. Each time she’d ask me what I was looking at, and each time I’d lie and tell her “Nothing.’” She’d make a face and keep doing whatever she was doing, and I’d find something else about her to be infatuated with. It’s an endless cycle that I feel will happen forever. And I honestly wouldn’t mind if it did.

Since we’ve gotten together we’ve changed a lot. Me especially. And I can thank that to her. After we started over we tried to really start over, in all sense of the words. It was like I was re-dating her, but the real her. I was learning about the Camilla that cares about family and friends. The one that is kind and honest but also the one that isn’t scared of any challenge whatsoever. And her love for challenges is what helped me the greatest because I am a challenge.

I will admit, I’m not the easiest person to deal with. I know that, and my family knows that more than anyone. But Milla helped me understand just how hard I am to deal with. She made me realize things about myself that I didn’t see. Whenever I’d say something wrong she wasn’t scared to tell me. I still slip up, but I’m trying. I’m trying so hard to be better.

When I ruined Christmas dinner she refused to talk to me until I apologized to everyone and then personally apologized to Will and Antwone face to face. I thought she was kidding, but she wasn’t. I hadn’t realized how big of an ass I was to everyone around me until I actually said sorry to Will. When the words left my mouth she laughed in my face. She didn’t believe me and thought maybe I came to terrorize Antwone some more or to ask her for a favor. But when I told her no her eyes widened. She couldn’t comprehend the fact I wanted to tell her sorry and that’s when it hit me. I’ve ruined so many things for her that she always just dealt with it and figured me never owning up to it would be a normal reoccurring theme in her life.

It was like a bullet to the chest when the realization sunk in. That I was single handedly one of the worst brothers I could have been to her. That even though she looked out for me for years upon years, I didn’t deserve any of the love and care that she gave me because I never gave any back. I took her for granted and even when she kicked me out it didn’t register. I hated her for not visiting me often when I was in prison and despised the fact she didn’t tell me about her tour or how well her band did. But I despised her for completely the wrong reasons.

I did a lot more reflecting after that. I wanted to be a better person. A better man. I wanted to show my family that I wasn’t the family let down. Or the black sheep. I wanted my parents to finally look at me with the same amount of pride they did for Alex and Will. I’m tired of the constant sighs when I walk in a room. Or the glares and slick remarks. I deserve them, yeah. But that doesn’t mean I have to like them.

So I got a shrink. I got one to help me understand why I am the way I am. It was Camilla’s idea. I hated it at first but it’s helped me a lot. I’m calmer now. Less erratic. I’m coming more to terms with who I am and how I was. And now I feel like I can finally fix it.

“Noah? Are you listening to me?” Milla’s voice brought me out of my daze. She was staring down at me, her hand resting on my chest.

“Sorry. I zoned out.”

“You sure do that a lot lately.” She said raising her eyebrow.

“I guess. What were you saying to me though?” I asked.

“Well,” a smirk appeared on her face as she adjusted her position on my lap. “Are you happy we started over?”

“Of course I am.” I ran my fingers through her hair as she leaned into me.

“I have one more question.” She said as she let her forehead rest on mine.

“Which is…?”

“Why is your shirt still on?”

A chuckle echoed from my chest as a smile spread across her face.

“It’s a real question you know.” She said, wrapping her arms tighter around my neck.

“We can change that, but only if you lose yours too.” I laughed.

She rubbed her chin as she pretended to think. “I think we can make that happen.”

She pulled her shirt over her head and tossed it on the floor. I let mine fall beside hers as she pushed me down onto the couch with a grin on her face. Her hands slid up my chest until she reached my neck and wrapped her arms around it.

“I love you.” She purred, staring into my eyes. Her finger flicked my nose as her fangs peaked out from her smile.

I pulled her hands to my mouth and kissed them. “I love you, too.”

Her smile widened as her forehead met mine. She kissed me and laid on my chest, her head nestled in the crook of my neck. I closed my eyes as my fingers traced the indentions on her back. The feeling of her fingers softly ran up and down my shoulder.

I felt around the floor for the remote. My fingers flicked my shirt off of it as I turned the TV off.

“Weren’t you watching that?” She asked.

“You’re more important.” I said kissing the top of her head. “I’d rather stay like this than watch anything on TV.”

“Besides sports.” She giggled into my chest.

My chest vibrated from my laughter. “You got me. “

“I know.” She smiled. “Now give me the remote. NCSI is on.”

“Fine.” I laughed and handed her the remote. She snatched it from me and a second later the TV blared on as she fell back onto my chest.


Clothes rushed past me as I threw dresses out of my dresser. Tiffany and Misty ran for cover as shirts and pants flew from my hands. I was searching my drawers for something to wear. I needed to look nice but I didn’t want to draw attention to myself. I needed to be invisible. But I also needed to protect myself. I mean, I’m going outside in broad daylight after all.

I quickly pulled a dress out of my draw and held it up for further inspection. I bit my lip as I examined it.

“You might just have to do.” I mumbled to myself. I held it up against my body and walked to the mirror. I looked over at Tiffany and Misty and posed. “Too much?”

Misty yawned and jumped down from the bed as Tiffany barked with her tail wagging.

“Well thank you, Tiffany.” I said as I glared at Misty as she slinked away.

“I just hope this goes well.” I mumbled to myself as I ran my hands through my hair.

If I was human my hands would have been sweating as I held my umbrella up. I adjusted my shades and tried to act natural as I came closer to the park. I could already see the arrangement from where I was. The closer I got the bigger my smile became. I decided on a nice bench away from the ceremony. It wasn’t too far that I couldn’t hear anything, but it hopefully was far enough that no one would notice me.

I zeroed in on the faces until my eyes caught on him. He looked polished and handsome in his suit but also extremely happy. He smiled as he rocked back and forth on his heels anxiously. Nate patted his shoulder to whisper some words of encouragement his way, making him relax a bit.

The small stench of smoke danced into my nostrils. My eyes shot down to my feet where the shade from my umbrella didn’t reach. I quickly tried to adjust myself but couldn’t find a position where my whole body was covered. I stood up as I searched the area for a new place to sit. I bit my lip when my mind came to its ultimate conclusion. There was no place to sit. Not for someone like me. I sighed and looked back over. I wanted to get one more glimpse of Jake’s happy face before I left but that wasn’t necessarily what I saw.

Instead Jake’s focus was on me. His brows were furrowed in confusion as he stared at me.  An awkward smile graced my lips as I gave him a small wave. I quickly turned around to walk off but I could hear the sound of footsteps coming towards me as fast as any human could.

“Will?” His voice was small behind me as his breath steadied from the quick sprint he did.

“I’m sorry, Jake.” I said as I spun around. “I know you didn’t want me here but I just couldn’t miss your wedding.”

He folded his arms and slowly shook his head. His eyes looked me up and down before they landed on the umbrella with a smirk. “So you mean to tell me you risked the sun to see my wedding?”

I nodded and adjusted my umbrella.

There was a small glimmer in his eyes as a small smile appeared on his lips. “You really didn’t have to.”

“Yes I did. We’ve been together for too long for me to just forget about you.” My eyes quickly shot behind him to his guests. They were all staring at us while they whispered to each other. I glanced over to Nate. He wore an arrogant smirk and waved at us before patting his friend and telling him something. A second later he was jogging over to us.

“Nate’s coming at 12 o’clock.” I whispered.

Jake rolled his eyes and wiped his mouth with annoyance.

“So all I want to know is,” Nate started as he strutted over cockily. “is there gonna’ be a wedding today or have you come to sweep my dude off his feet?” he laughed at his own joke as we both glared at him.

“What?” he said defensively. “It was a joke. Well sort of. Not really.”

“You and I both know that Will would never do that.” Jake growled. But I wish she would.

My eyes widened at his thought and I shifted uncomfortably. But this time, he noticed my shift. He looked up at me slowly with specks of horror in his eyes.

Did you read my thoughts?

I bit my lip and shut my eyes. I slowly nodded and looked away.

“How could you do that?!” Jake’s voice was laced with betrayal.

“Well I’m sorry if I haven’t needed to control my abilities since you stopped coming around.” I hissed.

Nate’s face contorted from the awkwardness and he rocked back and forth on his heels.

“Um… While you two hash this out, I’m gonna go wait over there.” He quickly shoved his hands in his pockets and power walked back to his spot.

My eyes glanced over the faces of everyone again before I sighed.

“Let’s not do this right now, Jake. I only came to see your wedding. Not start trouble.”

He glared down at me. “Even after what I told you? You didn’t think that you would start trouble?”

“Well the plan was to go unseen. But I guess that didn’t really work.” I chuckled awkwardly before glaring up at him.

“Why do you treat me like I’m the bad guy? I didn’t do anything wrong, Jake.”

His eyes looked away from me as he put his hands in his pockets. “I know.”

My brows narrowed as I looked up at him. “Then why do you treat me like I’m such a horrible person?”

He quickly wiped his nose with the straightest face he could manage while looking away. “Because I love you.” He said bitterly. “And because I’m weak.”

“You aren’t weak.” I said softly.

“Yes I am. I always have been.” he said matter-of-factly. “You just somehow helped make me stronger.”

I shook my head. “You were always strong, Jake.”

He looked down at me and shook his head in disagreement. “Think of all the times I ran away from you. All because I couldn’t handle my own feelings. Since when is that strong?”

I shifted my weight and glanced back at the crowd anxiously. “I don’t know.” I whispered. “But we really should do this some other time.”

“No.” He said as he put his hand up to stop me. “We’re gonna get this out now.”

“But you’re getting married!” I whispered loudly. “All of your fucking guests are staring at us and whispering!”

“Let them whisper.” He said as he looked back to them.

“What about Valerie?” I growled and pulled his arm. “Do you seriously think she wants to see the man she’s about to marry having a hushed conversation with some girl right before she walks down the aisle?”

His eyes quickly drifted to the area Valerie and the rest of the bridesmaids were hiding in. “It’s not like she knows about how I feel towards you.”

“Is that supposed to make me feel better?” I hissed. “Just makes me feel like I’m keeping some horrible secret from her.”

“Well technically you are.” He smirked.

“This is not the time to joke, Jake!” I whispered loudly.

His smirk widened and he looked away so he wouldn’t make eye contact with me. He looked towards Nate who motioned something to him. Jake shrugged and with a huff I turned around to leave.

I only got a couple feet away before he grabbed my arm. “Alright, alright. You’re right. I shouldn’t be joking about this. This is serious.” He said. “But you might as well stay for the ceremony.

“I don’t think I should.” My eyes glanced back to the guests before looking up at Jake. “I think I’ve already caused enough problems for you and Val’s day.”

His fingers intertwined themselves with mine as he looked down at me. “Please?”

I silently gasped as I looked down at my hands.  I quickly pulled them away and shook my head. “You can’t do that, Jake! Not when you’re getting married!”

“All I did-“

“They don’t realize that.” I said before motioning to the crowd who were eagerly whispering to one another with faces of pure horror. “But even if they did know they’d still be just as appalled.”

“By what?”

“The way you’re acting.”

“Then I guess you should of realized what might of happened if you were noticed today.” He said harshly. “Because obviously you didn’t.”

“Well I’m sorry if I didn’t assume you’d come running from your spot to tell me you love me again. I’m just so sorry I thought you loved Valerie more than that than to try and ruin her day. She’s about to be your wife you know.”

“Well I’d much rather it be you in her place. How about that?” He looked down at me seriously as my mouth fell open. My umbrella almost fell from my hand as I stood in shock at his words.

“You don’t mean that.” I growled. “Tell me you don’t mean that!”

“Look, I wish I could, but I can’t. And that’s just the way it is. “He shrugged. “So if I was to say I didn’t run over here to see if you changed your mind about everything, I’d be lying.  And of course I care about Valerie, but I care about you more. It’s something I don’t think will ever change honestly and I’ve come to terms with it.”


“Just let me finish first.” He looked towards Valerie’s area and then turned his attention back to me.

“I don’t want you to think I don’t want to ever see you again because that’s not true. When you aren’t around I don’t feel the same. You bring out so much in me that I just can’t by myself. Valerie knows it, Nate knows it, everyone knows it. And honestly, just being with you for this short amount of time is making me feel better than I have in months. “

I shook my head as I looked up at him. “Please don’t keep going. You’ve already said enough.”


“Look. I’m sorry for everything I’ve caused to you. All the hurt and pain that I shed on you all these years without knowing. I’m sorry I never knew how you felt. But I can’t change my feelings towards you, Jake.  I love you. I really do. But not the way you want. Not the way you obviously need me to love you.”

“But why?” He begged. “I just need to know before you leave.”

My eyes met his as I could feel them becoming less dry. And as I searched his own I could see desperation and agony throughout them.

“I just…”

“What is it about me that makes me so repulsive to you?”

I searched his eyes one more time before frowning up at him. I closed my eyes as I let the words softly flow from my mouth the best way I knew how.

“If I could… could forget him
I would… please believe me
And I know that I should throw the towel in
But baby it’s not… not that easy
You treat me so much better than him
And if I was sane there’d be no competition
But… but I’m in love with someone else
And I’m so sorry
I’m in love with another man
And I know it ain’t right

You’ve  already found someone else
Who can treat you right
Give you the world
Someone who understands the man you are
Cause baby you shine so bright
And I would just dim your star
A girl who’ll treat you like you treat them
Boy I know there’s plenty women
Who would love to have a man like you
But I’m in love with someone else…
I’m so sorry baby
I know I ain’t right… no no no no no no
For what I did to you baby

I can’t explain why it’s him and not you
But at the end of the day baby I just don’t want to
Cause he ain’t no doctor
And we always seem to fight, he ain’t got the perfect body
And sometimes he don’t even treat me right
Oh but when I’m with him, but when I’m with him
When I’m with him, ain’t nobody else like it
I’m so sorry baby that I have to do this to you
But I can’t go on pretending…
Cause I love him, I love him
And I’m so sorry… do you hear me?
I’m so sorry but I love that man
I love that man…
He ain’t always right, but he’s just right for me
I’m in love with another man… and I’m so sorry…
But I love someone else…”


I quickly wiped the stray tear from my cheek as I looked up at his face. He was trying hard to keep himself together and he quickly wiped his eye with his sleeve.

“I’m sorry, Jake.” I whispered. I looked behind him and saw some of his guests standing as they stared at me. Nate’s face was laced with worry just like the rest of Jake’s team. One guest quickly stood up as she started clapping until someone stopped her and shook their head.

I looked back at Jake with stern eyes. “Now you better treat that girl right.” I said as I pointed to Valerie’s section. “Because if there’s anyone here that you should want, it should be her. So you better not break that girl’s heart. Promise me you won’t break her heart.”

He looked down at me in pain. “I promise.”

I nodded with a smile. “Good.” I leaned up and kissed his cheek. “Congratulations, Mr. Crew.”

He nodded a thank you and I slowly turned around to walk away. I kept walking until I was out of the park and out of sight. But I stopped under a tree outside of the gate.  Because you see, I wasn’t leaving without seeing his wedding.

My fist knocked on Amber’s apartment door hard. A second later the door flung open and I was greeted by bright silver eyes.

“No need to try to break my door, bitch.” She glared before rolling her eyes and walking away.

I shrugged and followed her inside to the living room. Trixi and Skylar were already waiting with mugs of blood sitting on the table. I took a seat and leaned back.

“So, what is this little get together all about?” I asked.

Amber was standing by the wall as she folded her arms across her chest.

“It’s about time we got our shit together.” She growled.

All of our eyes shot to each other before looking back at her.

“I’m sorry. But did you fucking lose your daughter to the underworld? I don’t think so.” Trixi hissed aggressively.

Amber nodded in understanding and shifted her weight. “Well, I think we need to figure out what exactly we want to do.”

“And why do you have this sudden need?” Skylar asked. “I thought we said we were on break.”

“I know we said that.” Amber pushed herself off the wall and walked over to sit on her coffee table. “But I still have at least one more album in me. I have some songs written and everything.” She eagerly looked at each of us. “They sound more like when we first started. None of that mainstream shit we did for the last album. Just straight raw thoughts and emotions from everything that’s been happening to us.”

Trixi tensed slightly from Amber’s words. Amber caught her through the corner of her eyes. “Don’t worry, no one will know about the demons or the way Rebel was taken.”

Trixi relaxed slightly and leaned back in her seat. Skylar intertwined his fingers together and narrowed his eyes.

“Who said we’re even ready to do another album?”

“Who said we aren’t?” Amber fired back.

“Look.” He began. “Maybe we should wait a little bit. Just until after—“

“Who’s the girl?” Trixi looked up with a smirk.

“How do you do that?!” Amber smirked.

“I have my ways.” Trixi laughed. “So who is she?”

“She’s none of your concern.” He growled.  “At least not yet.”

“She must be pretty special if you actually want to see her more than one time.” Amber raised her eyebrow as her lips curled up into a smirk.

“She is—“

“Then she’ll love to come to one of our practices then.”

Skylar glared over at her as his body stiffened with annoyance.

“I think the album would be good for us.” I blurted out.

“And why would you think that?” Skylar’s voice was laced with disgust.

“Can’t you see we’re falling apart? All of us. We aren’t the same as we used to be.” I said slowly. “Our music was what kept us together. It kept us all sane. And with all of the things that’ve been going on, we’ve spent less and less time together resulting in less time to play together. And it’s destroying us.”

They all looked down as I continued. “We’re a family, you guys. We might be dysfunctional, but we’re still family. And there should be no reason why each visit we make to each other we feel more and more like strangers.”

“She’s right.” Trixi joined in. “We never hang out anymore. Shit, we don’t even talk anymore.”

“And that needs to change.” Amber added. She looked back at Skylar with narrowed eyes. “Look. We can go back on break once we finish this album. It’s not going to hurt you or your mystery woman. But it will help you. I can guarantee you that.”

His eyes looked over the three of us before he sighed. “I guess you’re right.” He ran his fingers through his hair before getting up to pace. “So when are we starting?”

“As soon as possible.” Amber stood up quickly as her words left her mouth. “I’m going to let Max read over my songs but you guys can feel free to add to them if you want. I want this album to really be from all us.”

Sounds good to me.” Trixi smirked.

I cleared my throat loudly and leaned forward in my spot. “Before we start talking about the album, I just want to know one thing.”

Everyone looked over at me as I narrowed my eyes at Skylar. “Who’s this special girl that you never told us about?”

He looked away as he shoved his hands in his pockets. “Don’t worry about her.”

“Oh, I’m not worried about her. I just want to know who the hell she is.” I glared as I crossed my legs.

Skylar sighed and brought his hands to his forehead. “Her name is Rae. She’s blonde but she isn’t like most girls I’ve met.”

“I’m guessing she’s not a slut then.” Amber laughed as she took a seat on the couch.

Skylar gave her a quick glare and leaned against the wall. “No. She’s far from it. Maybe I’ll invite her to something one day.”

I’m hoping soon. I want to meet this special girl that could make you actually slow the fuck down.” Trixi teased.

“Can I get an amen?” I joked as I threw my hands up in the air. Amber stifled her laughter as Skylar playfully pushed me.

“You guys are clowns. You know that?” He chuckled while he grabbed his mug from the table. “I think I’mma head out though.”

“Can’t keep your woman waiting.” I grinned.

He gave us a quick two finger salute as he walked to the door. “I’ll leave this in the sink. Have a good morning you guys.”

“Same to you!”

“Just make sure she can walk when you’re done with her!” Amber called out through laughter.

Skylar threw his middle finger up as he walked out the door. The second the door was shut the three of us erupted in laughter.

“So you hoes are really up for another album?” Amber asked as she calmed down.

Me and Trixi nodded as a grin spread across Amber’s face.

“Alright!” She stretched out her arms and cracked her knuckles. “Let’s get to it then. I have some lyrics in my room.” She quickly ran off to grab them. I leaned back in my seat with a smile. Trixi looked over in confusion as she raised her eyebrow at me.

“Why are you smiling?”

“Because I’m happy.”

“About what?” She leaned back and put her arm up on the back of the couch.

“That things might start to go back to the way they were again.”

“I hear ya with that.” She chuckled.

A moment later Amber walked out of her room and sat on the floor with a small notebook. And it was like old times again. Just us and our music. Like when things were normal.

My arms stretched to the sky as my feet quietly slid across the carpet of my bedroom. I moved silently as to not wake the sleeping Antwone on the bed. My hand came to my face to scratch my nose as I looked back at him. It’s been a couple months since Rebel’s been gone. We’ve all been trying to make it through in our own ways and we haven’t been around each other in a while. We’ve been slowly growing apart in this time of strife and it’s killing me.

Antwone’s been around ever since everything happened. He’s even been going around to the rest of their houses to make sure everyone’s alright. I don’t even understand how he’s been doing it. He barely sleeps because of it. He brings Trixi and Ash stuff, then visits Amber to see if she’s killed anyone, makes his way over to Skylar to make sure he’s not causing too much trouble and then heads to the studio to work with his other artists. And then after all of that he comes to my apartment to make sure I’m alright. But every time he ends up driving home half sleep or crashes on my couch to then repeat the cycle over again.

It’s draining to say the least. But he keeps pushing to keep everyone intact for the fear we’ll break apart and forget about each other. And he knows that’s something none of us need right now.

My eyes lazily scanned over his sleeping form from my spot leaned against the doorway. If anyone else had seen him they’d  be scared he was dead from the lack of the rise and fall of his chest. But the corners of my lips curled up into a smile at his peaceful slumber. I motioned for Tiffany to come out with me and softly closed the door as she scampered out.

I made my way across the short hall to my makeshift studio. The cool wood floor sent a relaxing chill throughout me as my bare feet glided across the floor. Misty meowed softly from her bed but paid me no mind as she laid back down. I stretched out my arms as I yawned and took a seat at my piano. My fingers had been  itching to play since the moment I woke up. My fang bit down on my lip slightly as I glided my fingers across the smooth keys. My eyes closed silently in reverie as I sighed with relief.


Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

Where are your people from? Maybe Mississippi or an Island
Apparently your skin has been kissed by the sun
You make me want a Hershey’s kiss, your licorice

Every time I see your lips, it makes me think of honey-coated chocolate
Your kisses are worth more than gold to me
I’ll be your almond joy, you’ll be my sugar daddy

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

Every time you come around, something magnetic pulls me and I cant get out
Disoriented, I cant tell my up from down
All I know is that I wanna lay you down

Every time I let you in, abracadabra magic happens as we swim
Higher and higher finally we reach heaven
Come back to earth and then we do it all again

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

Skin so brown, lips so round
Baby how can I be down?
Beautiful mahogany, you make me feel like a queen
Tell me what’s that thing you do that makes me wanna get next to you, yeah

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

Brown skin, you know I love your brown skin
I cant tell where yours begins, I cant tell where mine ends
Brown skin, up against my brown skin
Need some every now and then:oh hey:

As I finished off my last note I slowly looked up to see Antwone standing in the doorway. I quickly pushed my hair out of my face as he slowly made his way across the room.

“Seems like someone decided to finally get up.” I smiled up at him as he stepped in front of the keyboard.

“Well I heard music so I had to come check it out.” He carefully slid next to me and wrapped his arms around my waist.  “Why’d you let me sleep so long?”

“You were tired.” I said as I interlocked my fingers in his. “I figured you could use the rest.”

“I’d rather listen to you sing than sleep any day.” He said as he kissed my cheek. “Your voice is too beautiful to miss.”

“Stop trying to flatter me. “ I playfully pushed him away but he came right back.

“Stop acting like you don’t like it.” He laughed. I rolled my eyes at him and pushed some more hair out of my face. I let my hands gently fall back onto the keys and my fingers softly glided across it, hitting random keys as they felt necessary.

“You know,” he began as he stared at the piano, “I think you should go solo. When you’re finished with the band.”

My fingers stopped suddenly causing a screech to echo from the piano. My face contorted in confusion as I looked over at him. “Why would I do that?”

He continued to look down and fiddled with two keys on the piano. “I just figured you might want to. Your voice is amazing and you’re beautiful. There’s no way you wouldn’t make it.”

My eyes stared at my fingers. I closed my eyes and sighed quietly. “I couldn’t do that, Twon. You know that.”

“You just think you couldn’t. But you could.”

I shook my head and jiggled a key slightly. “I’m not a solo performer, Twon. I’m not a singer or someone who’s supposed to be in the middle of the stage. I’m better as a backup. I’m better behind the keys.”

He sighed and put his hand on mine. “Alright.” He closed his hand over mine and looked down at me. “But I just want you to understand something.”

“And that is?”

“I worked for many years as a talent scout. I’ve had to scout talent for tons of bands and even found some real hidden talents that became stars. So if there’s one thing I’m good at, it’s finding people that have a special something. And you Miss,” he started as he rested his forehead on mine, “are one very special and talented woman. And I’m not just saying that because I love you.”

I bit my lip to hold back my smile as I looked down to avoid eye contact. I could feel his grin before he kissed my nose. A second later the seat felt empty as he stood up to leave.

“Wait! Where are you going?” I called out from my seat. “You don’t have work to do today.”

He stopped slightly and turned to face me. “I haven’t checked on everyone yet today. I think I’ll go now and get it over with.”

My lips fell into a pout as I leaned over the piano lifelessly. “But you visit them everydaaaayyy.” I picked my head up to look at him. “Why can’t you stay?”

“Since when do you pout and whine about things?” He laughed and folded his arms.

“Please? You could show me how much better you’ve gotten at playing.”

He looked over at me with a smirk and ran his fingertips through his hair. “Fine. But you can’t make fun of me if I mess up.”

A grin grew on my face as I moved over to make space for him to sit. As he sat down my arms found their way around his waist and I rested my head on his shoulder.

“What should I play?” He asked and looked at me through the corner of his eyes.

I shrugged and fixed my position. “Play whatever you want.”

His fingers danced above the keys as songs danced in his head until finally they began to play. My eyes closed as I felt his body move with each movement he made and each note he sang.

“We’ve been together for a while now
We’re growing stronger everyday now
It feels so good and there’s no doubt
I will stay with you as each morning brings sunrise
And the flowers bloom in springtime
On my love you can rely
And I’ll stay with you

Oh I’ll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I’ll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we’ll be alright
I will stay with you

Though relationships can get old
They have the tendency to grow cold
We have something like a miracle
Yeah, and I’ll stay with you

Oh I’ll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I’ll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we’ll be alright
I will stay with you

And there will be heartaches and pains, yes it will
But through it all, we will remain
In this life, we all know
Friends may come, and they may go
Through the years I know
I will stay
And in the end I know that we’ll find
Love so beautiful and divine
We’ll be lovers for a lifetime, yeah
And I’ll stay with you
I will stay with you

Oh I’ll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I’ll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we’ll be alright
I will stay with you
Everything will be fine
And I will stay with you
Through the end of time
I will stay with you”

My legs felt weak as I got closer to the door. The feeling in them was rapidly decreasing as I latched myself onto the wall for support. With my hand pressed against the wall I made my way to the door and let myself in. Everyone was there. And everyone looked just as devastated as the last. I only made it a few steps in before they noticed me.

“Where is she?” I asked desperately.

Their heads slowly turned towards her bedroom and I found myself in a half jog. The second I turned the corner my hand made its way to my mouth as my eyes landed on her. Ash rocked her back and forth in his arms while sobs echoed from her chest. In her hand she held Rebel’s blanket.

Ash’s ear twitched as he heard me take a step forward. When his eyes met mine they were stained with blood. A small smile graced his lips as he looked up at me. “Hi Will.” His voice was hoarse and he coughed slightly to clear it. “It’s nice to see you.”

I tried to smile back but nodded instead. He slowly motioned for me to come closer and I cautiously took a seat on the edge of the bed.

Ash’s hand gently patted Trixi’s shoulder to get her attention. “Trixi.” He said softly. “Will’s here.”

She shook her head into his chest. “I can’t look at her. Everyone hates me!” She cried.

“No one hates you.” He cooed and kissed her hair. “You did the best you could.” A stream of tears fell down his cheek as he tried to keep himself strong. This was breaking him. Everyone knew how much he loved Rebel. But everyone also knew how much he loves Trixi. And seeing her like this was slowly tearing him even more apart.

I leaned over to tap him on the shoulder. “Why don’t you go get some air for a bit?” I whispered. “I’ll take care of her for now.”

He slowly nodded his head as he gently unwrapped her arms from around him. “I’ll be right back, T.” He said before leaving. As he left everyone else found places to sit and stand within the bedroom. I quickly slid next to Trixi as she stared down at the floor.

Everyone was silent. No one knew what to say. But I mean, what could you say? How could you possibly know what to say in a situation like this?

“I’m sorry.” Trixi’s small voice broke through the silence. It was weak and sounded like it pained her to speak. “I’m sorry I couldn’t save her.”

We all looked at her with hurt in our eyes.

“Trixi, there’s nothing for you to be sorry about.” Patricia said softly. “You did the best you could.”

“Stop it!” She screamed. “I’m tired of hearing that line! If I tried the best I could she’d still be here with me! And she’s not. Because she’s with them! Because her mother is a horrible person and couldn’t even fight hard enough to keep her!” Tears poured from her eyes in a constant stream. “Because of me she’s gone! And she’s never coming back!”

Her body slowly keeled over as she started shaking. I gently wrapped my arms around her just as fresh sobs began to echo within the room.

“Why did this have to happen to me?” She sobbed. Her words were muffled by her own crying. Her head fell into my chest as she continued to speak. “What did I ever do to deserve this? I didn’t do anything wrong?!” She picked her head up and looked at me, her eyes completely drenched in pain. “I never asked for their help, Will. If I had died that night none of this would of happened! I never deserved to live!”

“Stop it.” I scolded her. “Don’t say things like that.” Skylar quickly put his hand on my shoulder to stop me but I pushed it off. “Whether you became a vampire or not, you still deserved to live.”

“But-“ I shook my head at her to cut her off before grabbing her hands. Her eyes widened as I looked into them seriously.

“You’re a good person, Trixi. And we know you loved Rebel. We know you loved her so much more than you ever thought possible. And it showed every single time you looked at her. You couldn’t have ever possibly been a better mother to that girl because you already were the best. I know that, Ash knows that, everyone knows that.”

“But I couldn’t save her.” She whimpered.

“I know.” I sighed. “But honestly, there was nothing you could have done to save her. We knew this would happen and it sucks that they waited so long to take her. But at least you can say that when you had the chance to be with her you did everything possible to make sure she was loved. And that’s what matters. That she was loved.”

Her lip quivered slightly as she processed everything said. “Thank you.” She whispered.

I smiled at her as her body fell back into my arms with more tears falling from her swollen eyes.

I unlocked the door to Will’s place with the spare key. I had been calling her all day to check on her after the visit to Trixi’s but she never picked up. I know she’d tell me I had no reason to be worried about her but I still was. I walked into the apartment and was greeted with an eerie silence. I slowly took off my jacket and let it neatly fall on the back of the chair.

Something’s wrong. I thought to myself. I can feel it.

A second later I heard the soft patter of Tiffany’s paws coming down the stairs. “Hey Tiff.” I smiled, dropping down to one knee. She barked softly at me before walking back to the stairs, but she stopped and looked back at me as if to see if I was coming. When I walked closer she pranced up the stairs and looked down at me from the top before barking again.

With each step I took the faint sound of sobs could be heard. I softly pushed open the door to find Will on the floor crying.

“Babe?” My body was still halfway in the doorway. I wasn’t sure if she’d be upset for me being there or not. My voice made a sob catch in her throat as she quickly turned to face me.

“Twon? Wh-what are you doing here?” Her eyes were filled with blood as she tried to wipe some of it away while she stood up from her spot.

“You hadn’t answered my calls. I got worried.” Concern was laced throughout my voice.

“Sorry.” She whispered, her eyes set on the floor.

“Did everything go okay?” I took a few careful steps closer to her. She turned her face away as her lip quivered.

“Do you really think it went okay?” Her voice was harsh. “Her baby was stolen from her.  Nothing about that is okay.”

“I-I know.” I stammered.

“Obviously you don’t!” She massaged the bridge of her nose to calm herself down. After a minute her eyes locked onto the ground.

“I just wish there was some way I could have stopped it.” She muttered. Her hands balled into fists beside her and her eyes shut tight. “I just wish I could of helped her. We shouldn’t of let her stay in the apartment alone last night. I should have slept over. I knew I should of but I didn’t.” Tears ran down her face as the anger inside of her rose more.

“This isn’t your fault, Will.” I tried to grab her hands but she pulled away.

“Yes it is!” She yelled. “I’m the one she confessed everything to. She trusted me with a part of herself that no one knows about. That no one still knows about! And yet I couldn’t even help protect her from getting her daughter taken!”

“Rebel wasn’t yours to protect, Will!” I yelled as I grabbed her shoulders. “She never was!”

She glared up at me with a grimace on her face. “That doesn’t mean I shouldn’t have tried.”

I shook my head. “It also doesn’t mean that it’s your fault. You didn’t do anything wrong, Will.” My grip loosened on her but my hands stayed planted in their spots. “You did everything that you were supposed to and Trixi knows that.”

Her shoulders began to loosen under my hands as she slowly began to process everything I said.

“This wasn’t your fight, Will. It never was.”

“Then why does it hurt so much?” She whispered. She looked up at me as she waited for my response. But her eyes sent a sharp pain through my chest. The agony in them was frightening and if I was alive, it would of made my breath catch in my throat.

“Willow…” My words trailed off as I pulled her into my arms. She buried her face in my chest as our bodies rocked from her sobs. The harder she cried, the tighter my arms wrapped around her until I picked her up to hold her tighter.

I hated seeing her like this and it was something she hated me to see too. She’s the type of person to keep her cool in most situations. Even when something bothers her she puts on a straight face and pretends everything is okay. She hates for people to see her “weak.” She’d rather have people see her yelling than see her crying. So when she does cry around someone, you know something insane happened. I’ve only seen her cry a couple times and when it does happen it pains me to see her.

“I’m sorry.” She whimpered into my neck.

“You didn’t do anything.” I reassured her and kissed her jaw tenderly.

I slowly lowered her back down until her feet were softly on the ground again.

I held her hands in mine as she stared down. “Could you stay with me today?” Her voice was barely above a whisper.

I nodded and kissed the top of her head. “Of course.”

“Thank you.”

I wrapped my arms around her and lead her down the stairs to the couch.

“Why are we going downstairs?” She sniffled.

“I’m not going to let you sit in your room depressed all day.” I said as I searched through her TV cabinet. “Video games or a movie?”

“I don’t really—“

“Oh, come on. Just choose one. Please?” I asked as I turned to face her.

She sighed in defeat and thought about her choices. “Games.” She smiled and wiped more tears away.

I quickly put a game in and grabbed the controllers. “Here you go.” I said as I handed her one before taking a seat. She leaned back into my chest and swung her legs onto the arm of the couch.

“Comfy?” I teased.

“Shut up.” She sniffled while trying to hit me with the controller. “That’s why I’m gonna’ beat you.”

“Just because you’ve been crying doesn’t mean I’ll let you win.” I smirked.


We played for hours. I started getting tired after the first half hour but I refused to stop. Not after how happy she looked. Her face still was stained from the tracks of her tears. But seeing the sparkle of her fangs each time she’d smile was worth facing insomnia for.

“Yes!” She shrieked as she threw her hands up in victory. “Suck it, bitch!”

My chest vibrated from my laughter as she threw her fist in the air. “Finally.” I teased.

“Whatever.” She laughed. The feeling of her delicate fingers touched my chin as she pulled it down to face her.

“Thank you, Twon.” She smiled while looking into my eyes. “For everything.”

“I didn’t really do much.”

“You were here for me. And that was enough for me.” Her thumb softly caressed my jaw as she stared up at me.

“I’ll always be here for you, Will.” She wrapped her arm around my neck as I brought my lips down to meet hers.

She closed her eyes and rested her head on my chest. “I love you.” She whispered.

“I love you too.” Her lips spread into a smile as I kissed her head. Before she could resist I picked her up.

“Now let’s get you in bed, sleepy head.” I laughed.

“Only if you stay with me.” She yawned and nestled her head in the crook of my neck.

“I promise.”

The day Trixi gave birth was pure chaos.

“Ash! How many fucking times do I have to tell you to leave the fucking seat down when you’re done in the fucking bathroom?!” Trixi screamed. Ash was standing in the middle of the apartment with his back to the door. His face looked worn out as he sighed.

“I’m sorry, honey. I won’t do it again. I promise.” He called out.

“Damn right you won’t!” She growled before slamming the bathroom door shut.

Ash’s eyes slowly fell to me as he walked towards the couch. Each step seemed like a grueling task and the second he got close enough he let his body fall onto the seat.

“Is everything alright?” I asked as I looked over at him. Amber’s face mimicked mine with creases of worry from the armrest.

Ash forced his head in our direction but let it rest on the back of the couch. “She’s been screaming for two months straight.” He spoke softly as if each word pained his throat to speak. “Every day it gets worse.”

Me and Amber exchanged glances before looking back at Ash. His eyes were closed as he tried to relax.

Suddenly Trixi waddled angrily into the living room. “You two are still here?”

“Well, yeah.” I said.

“We’re taking you out.” Amber stated matter-of-factly.

“Who said I wanted to go out?” Trixi glared.

“It will be good for you to get some fresh air, babe.” Ash said with his eyes closed as he leaned his head back.

“You trying to get rid of me or something?” Trixi growled.

“No.” He sighed.

“Then why the hell do you want me to leave?!” She yelled.

“I’m just thinking about you, Trix. You’ve been stuck in the house for weeks now.”

“You don’t like being with me?!” Her voice broke suddenly through her anger as a tear fell from her eye.

Ash let out an exasperated sigh. “I love being with you—“

“I know when you’re lying!!” She screamed. “It’s because I’m fat now isn’t it?!?”

Ash quickly got up and made his way towards her. “T, you know I love—“

“I can’t help it I’m fat!” She cried.

“I never said—“

“Well you know what? Fuck you!” She sobbed. She quickly waddled away from him and into their room. She grabbed a bag and started packing it with clothes.

Amber and I just sat on the couch awkwardly. We weren’t sure if we should leave or if we should stay.

“What the hell are you doing?!” Ash’s voice boomed through the apartment.

“I’m taking myself off your hands since I’m just so much to fucking deal with!” Trixi screamed.

“The fuck, Trixi?! No one said anything!!” He yelled.

My eyes widened as I stared down at my lap. I had never seen Ash angry. Even Amber was taken aback. “Maybe we should leave.” I whispered to her.

She nodded. “Shit’s getting a little too real right now.” She whispered back.

They kept screaming at each other as we quietly got up and inched our way to the door. Before we reached the door we heard a shriek come from the bedroom.

“What’s wrong?” Ash‘s voice quickly switched into a voice of concern.

“Shit! My water just broke!” Trixi cried.

“Your water just broke?!” Ash yelled in shock.

“Yes, you bastard! It just fucking broke!”

I looked back at Amber with a sigh as I closed the door and rushed over to Trixi’s side.


It’s been three months since my baby was born. I fought the doctors against naming her/him, but they refused to let me leave without giving it a name. So I named him/her Rebel.

I didn’t want to hold it at first. But the doctors insisted. The second I looked down into her/his eyes I fell in love. I tried so hard not to but I couldn’t help it. They became my life and I couldn’t just let that get ripped away from me.

The first month I barely slept. Half because little Rebel refused to let me and half because I was terrified she wouldn’t be there when I woke up. I guarded her with my life and as each passing day went by I became more protective.

In the past three months she’s grown on everyone around her. Everyone stops by to see her and make sure she’s alright. It’s amazing the spark she’s given us.

But what I’ve fallen in love with the most is how Ash acts towards her. It’s like she’s become his princess. He loves her so much that it sends a pain through me knowing that one day she’s going to be taken away.

Some days when I lie in bed I wonder if maybe Sion and Domina have decided to let me keep her. That maybe they see too much good in her beautiful soul to take her from me. But I know it isn’t true. The nightmares I’ve been having just show as proof.

They started a few weeks after I had her. Each night it would start with darkness. I couldn’t see anything but I could hear the faint cry from Rebels crib. Each night the cry would slowly become more clear until now three months later I can not only hear a second voice whispering to her but the flash of red hair glowing in the darkness.

When I’d wake I’d jump up and run to her crib and hold her in my arms. She’d be sound asleep but I’d have to feel the rise and fall of her chest for myself just to make sure I wasn’t dreaming it. And after I’d put her back in her crib I’d sit there watching her for the rest of the night.

The thought of losing her never leaves my mind. It’s inevitable but I pray every night that there’s some way to stop it. I’ve only had her for three months, but in those three months she’s become everything to me. And I honestly don’t know how I could possibly live without her.

Darkness encompassed the room. In the distance was the faint sound of crying. Rebel’s crying. I tried to get up but my body was paralyzed. The crying slowly became louder with each second that passed by. My eyes searched through the darkness for her. “Rebel!” I screamed, but no sound escaped my mouth.

Red appeared dimly in the distance. It slowly glided closer and made its way to the crying.

“Time’s up.” She whispered.

“No!!” I screamed.

Maniacal laughter erupted from the floating hair until suddenly blue eyes shined through the darkness. With a snap of her finger the image was gone.

My eyes shot open as I jumped out of my bed. Domina was standing over the crib holding Rebel in her arms. Rebel grabbed her finger as she cooed at her.

“She’ll make a fine leader one day.” Domina grinned at me. “It’s such a shame you won’t get to witness it.” She smirked maliciously as her victory danced in her eyes.

“Please.” I pleaded. “Let me make you a different deal. Please just give me back my baby.” Tears streamed down my face as I fell to my knees.

She smiled down at me and chuckled. “A deal is a deal.”

“No!” I screamed as I launched myself forward. Laughter bounced around the walls as she disappeared, sending me straight to the floor with a loud thump.

My body refused to move as loud sobs rocked my body.

“No!” I screamed into the empty apartment. “Give her back!!! Please!! Just give her back!!!”  I banged my fist on the ground as my body crumbled in on itself. “Please just give her back” I sobbed. “Please.”

“Hey bitch.” I barged through Trixi’s door and into her apartment. She was sitting on her couch watching TV. A few feet away Ash rummaged through their dresser looking for a shirt to wear.

“Hey Ash.” I threw a quick wave in his direction and he nodded back in greeting.

“You alright?” I asked taking a seat next to her. She nodded and turned the television up with the remote.

My eyes narrowed as I stared at her. Her sight was stuck on the screen and refused to move. There was no movement or expression from her. It was like a blank slate with nothing on it. I sighed and let myself lean back on the chair. My body slide down slightly as I stared at the screen.

“What are you even watching?” I asked with a grimace as I pushed some red hair behind my ear.

“Vampire Wives.” She murmured.

“Since when do you watch this trash?”

“Since she got pregnant.” Ash stated, his hand on my shoulder. “She just sits here and watches TV all day. She hasn’t even touched her drum set since you all took your break.”

“I don’t want to hurt the baby.” She muttered without taking her concentration away from what she was watching.

Ash sighed and took a few steps over so he was behind her. He leaned down and kissed her on the cheek.

“I’ll be back later, T.” He looked to me and gave me a small nod before walking towards the door.

“Where are you going to?” Al asked as she appeared outside the door with Max.

“I have work.” He said while slipping between them. He did a quick wave goodbye and left.

“Guess he’s in a rush.” Al shrugged and walked through the door.

“Trixi, are you okay? Isn’t pregnancy supposed to give you a certain glow?” Max asked with her eyebrow raised.

“I’m dead. There is no glow.” Trixi rolled her eyes and turned the volume up on the TV some more.

Al leaned over the back of the couch and snatched the remote from her hand.

“Hey! I was watching that!” Trixi yelled.

“This trash? Yeah right. Let’s put on a movie or something.” Al said as she flipped through the guide to find something to watch.

“Oh! We could make it a girls night.” Max squealed in excitement. “You could use one Trixi. You need to get your spirits up.”

“What for?” Trixi glared.

“You have life growing in your body. A piece of you and Ash just growing and developing inside of you. It’s a beautiful thing that you should cherish.”

“Why would I want to cherish it if it’s going to be taken away from me?!” Trixi snapped.

“Well yeah, but-“

“You just don’t understand, do you?” Trixi stood up to look at Max. “This baby isn’t a blessing. It’s a curse. I’m bringing it to life to then be given away to demons. Do you think that’s anything to be fucking happy about? Because last time I checked it wasn’t.”


“Max, just sit down.” I sighed. “I think you’ve said enough for now.”

Max stood awkwardly behind the couch biting her lip. If she had been alive her face would have been redder than blood. A second later there was a knock on the door.

“I’ll get it.” Max mumbled as she walked towards the door.

“Hello everyone!” Will grinned. Everyone turned to look at her in confusion. She hadn’t willingly come out of her apartment in weeks. No one expected her to be here tonight.

“Well look who decided to break out of prison.” Al smirked and leaned back in her seat with her arms folded across her chest.

Will rolled her eyes but her smile stayed planted on her face. She walked closer to us so she could lean on the back of the couch. Each step had a new bounce to it and her hips swayed more than they had in a couple months.

“So how is everyone doing?” She asked, smirking down at us.

“No, I want to know how you’re doing.” I said with my brow raised.

“Oh, I’m doing okay.” She answered while she examined her nails.

“You lying little bitch.” Al laughed, shaking her head. “Something happened. I know it.”

“What would make you think something happened?” Will placed her hand on her chest to mock the accusation.

Trixi folded her arms across her chest with a smirk on her face.  “Who was it?”

A smile lingered on Will’s lips as she tried to suppress it. “What do you mean?” She asked in the purest sounding voice she could muster.

“Who’d you sleep with?” Trixi asked.

“Now that is none of your business.” She smirked before pushing herself up and onto the back of the couch.

“Well with the way you’re acting you’re making it our business.” I butt in.

Will quickly rolled her eyes and adjusted her weight on the couch. “Well, I wouldn’t necessarily call it sleeping.” She looked down at her nails with disinterest. “That would call for actual sleeping to be involved.” A smirk spread across her lips, revealing her fangs. Her eyes looked up at Trixi from behind her glasses with a devious glint in them.

We all looked at each other with surprise on our faces.

“You little slut.” Al teased.

“You see this?” Will stuck her middle finger up towards her. “Suck it, bitch.”

“I don’t go that way and you wouldn’t be my type anyway.” Al laughed.

The creases of a smirk were still embedded on Will’s lips as she rolled her eyes at her.

Trixi leaned against the wall and cleared her throat. When Will’s eyes were back on her, her smirk returned to her face.

“Who was it?” She asked while she shifted her position on the wall.

“Shouldn’t you sit down?” Will’s eyes fell to Trixi’s swollen stomach.

Trixi waved off the comment and crossed her arms. “Well?”

“Was it Jake?” Max blurted out.

Will shot a glare in her direction as her lips curled into a grimace. “No.”

“It was just a guess.” Max muttered to herself.

“Jermaine?” I asked, leaning on the arm of the couch.

Will laughed and shook her head. “Why would you think of him?” She asked between chuckles.

“Is she serious?” Al asked pointing to her.

Trixi shook her head to us to tell us to stop. She snapped her fingers to get Will’s attention.

“It was Antwone, wasn’t it?” She asked with her brow raised confidently.

“Don’t be stupid, Tri-“ My words were cut off as Will nodded her head. We all stared at her.

Trixi smirked and shook her head. “Was only a matter of time before he came running back, I guess.”

“Wait. You guys are back together?” Max’s eyes widened in surprise. “Even after how hurt you were?”

“Well we talked about everything. We got some things off our chests and what he said felt genuine. So I figured I’d give him a second chance.” She shrugged.

“Was that before or after you two woke up the neighbors?” Al asked without looking at her.

Will rolled her eyes and smacked the back of Al’s head half playfully. “Before, of course. I wouldn’t have had sex with him before he explained himself. And I didn’t even let him explain anything the first visit because I was too busy ripping his head off.”

“Which one?” Al smirked.

Will leaned over the couch and engulfed Al’s neck with her hands as she pretended to strangle her. “I swear, one more joke and I’m going to murder you.” Will laughed.

“Now that doesn’t sound like much of a threat while you’re laughing, does it?” Al smirked, her fangs glimmering in the light.

“You two are ridiculous.” I scoffed, rolling my eyes.

“She started it!” Will blurted out, pointing her finger at Al. “I just came to see Trixi and make sure she didn’t need anything.”

“Yeah, after you played naked twister with the boss.” Al grumbled before ducking Will’s next attack.

“Calm yourselves.” Trixi smirked. “I mean, damn. Will screws a dude and all hell breaks loose.”

“I knew something was up. It was the way you were walking.” Al smirked.

“You’re watching the way I walk now?” Will raised her eyebrows at her and put her hands on her hips.

“You do walk differently when you’re ‘with’ him.” Max piped up.

“You sway your hips more.” I added.

Will looked at me through the corner of her eyes with her brow raised.

“Come on, bitch. Like you didn’t notice your ass flying in different directions when you walk.” I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms.

Al looked at us with a straight face. “I was just going to say you walk funny because—“

“Don’t even say it.” Will cut her off and held her hand up in front of her. “I know what you’re going to say and don’t do it.”

“Fine.” She mumbled. “I’m just surprised you didn’t lose your voice after getting screwed so damn hard.”

“Can we please stop talking about my sex life and move on to what we came here for?” Will snapped.

“Not like we never know when you two fucked the night before.” Al muttered.

Will’s eyes glistened with hate as she glared at her.

“What? It’s obvious. He’s a fucking dork sometimes when he looks at you.”

I snorted trying to contain my laughter when Will’s glare shot to me. “Don’t encourage her, Amber.”

“Come on, that was funny. He is!” I laughed.

She scowled at me and mouthed a “fuck you” in my direction.

“Sorry Will. There’s some truth in what that cunt just said.” Trixi said through a chuckle.

“Exactly!” Al folded her arms victoriously.

“Whatever.” Will rolled her eyes. “Are we finally done talking about me?”

“Sadly.” Al said flatly.

“You’re just so funny.” Will glared at her.

Al theatrically faked a silent chuckle before receiving another middle finger in her face by Will.

“Actually, maybe you guys should go.” Trixi started as she made her way back to the couch.

“But I just got here.” Will whined.

“Fine. You can stay.” Trixi sighed before taking the remote again.

Will walked around and took a seat on the arm rest.

“Do you know what it is?” She asked, looking at Trixi’s stomach.

Trixi shook her head as she grabbed the remote. “I don’t care to know.”

Sadness flickered in Will’s eyes as she glanced from Trixi’s face to her stomach and back. She slowly nodded her head in understanding and leaned back on the couch to stare at the TV. The room went silent besides the noise blaring from the screen.

Everyone could feel Trixi trying hard to keep herself together. She was cracking. Every second she sat there I could feel her breaking slowly. But she didn’t want any of us to see it.

“I think I’ll head out now.” I said after the show finished. I smoothed out my clothes and stood up.

“Alright.” Trixi didn’t look up from the television. She stayed motionless with a blank stare.

Al and Max stood up after me. “I guess I’ll go, too.” Al said.

“Are you coming, Will?” Max asked.

Will glanced over at Trixi before looking back at us. “Nah. I think I’ll stay a little longer.”

I nodded to her and walked to the door. “I’ll call you later, Trixi.”I said over my shoulder.

As the door closed behind us we exchanged glances. We could hear the click of the television. More than likely from Will turning it off.

“Let’s go.” I mumbled, pushing them forward.” Their faces were filled with worry as they made their way to the elevator. Before taking a step inside I took a glance back at Trixi’s door. The sound of soft sobs leaked out of the cracks like a small flood. I closed my eyes and let a sigh escape my chest before taking the step into the elevator to watch the doors slowly close in front of me.